rambling on a tuesday

so...i got this great idea to start a blog...i wonder if i will ever write anything more than in the next ten minutes before i go to the astros game with my junior high students...who knows...so i decided to propose to candice on thursday, should be a good time...i have a huge nervous knot in my stomach that i can't seem to get rid of...i am going to ask her parents tommorrow, and i think i am just realizing what all that entails...i don't think i have really thought about what it means to be married...of course of thought about it, but i don't think my little mind can understand the concept of loving and serving a wife for the rest of my days...all of my life up to this point has been about little ol' me...insane...what a selfish bastard i am...i have the ring in a safe at church, and it is like something out of a edgar allen poe short story from high school, just kind of pulsating in the other room, and i try to act like i forget it is there...my precious...lol

anyway...there you have it